All is logical and all comes from foundational truths. These truths are the impetus of the signal upon the brain. Follow these logical truths and they shed light on all your experiences.

My entire life has this subtext, this knowledge of certain truths that it is built upon, memories from when I was created, universe-spanning truths, knowledge of what is to come. This subtext is bigger than anything physical life even comes close to, and everyday experience is built upon it. We all have these pictures, stories of knowledge, of the things we know to be inherently true. They are always with us, awaiting inspiration to temporarily reveal them again. Then they shine for a moment in the full light of attention before slowly fading again into the background, where they always remain.

As our attention increases in the moment, our frequency increases and we begin to merge with the perspective of our higher self who sees all. We move into the deep context of the moment. This is equivalent to rising out of the physical perspective into the dimensions of consciousness outside physical reality. It happens when the increased speed of consciousness allows us to perceive between two moments of physical time. From here we can gain great insight from our higher self that exists outside the limitations of physical time and space.

Conversely, when we move back into physical time, our frequency of consciousness slows down, and that connection becomes more distant.

We are the infinite, unchanging Source flowing out into more and more dense dimensions of existence. At the heart of us the frequency is infinite. It slows in each frequency domain until it reaches the physically-oriented frequency of consciousness.

Let’s imagine we’re communicating with someone. As our attention speeds us from 40 MHz to 60 MHz, we reach an higher, more attuned level of communion with that person. We communicate at a more subtle level — a deeper, truer level. Our higher self is now communicating with theirs.

As our frequency increases, we come closer to the Source in us, and perceive and communicate with others closer to the Source in them. We’re moving higher up the stream of reality. We can see and communicate at higher and higher levels until we, as the Source, are reaching out and touching ourselves — the Source in another. At this point we experience ourselves as one and are joined with all life.

This is how communication at higher frequencies works. Our frequency determines our position in the planes of consciousness. As ever with frequencies of consciousness, we’re riding up the stream of creation, the flow from the Source.

As our consciousness descends in frequency from our origin into the more constrictive and outward physical universe, we enter into new frequency domains where we have no experience yet. Frequency domains define a distance from the now, and they also define a span of allowed memory. As we enter each slower plane, our length of memory begins at the previous limit, then slowly expands as we gain experience.

In OBEs, Tito Monroe became aware of his first “home” in the higher frequency domains of the physical universe. It was a thrilling, beautiful, colorful, musical experience that endlessly repeats. It is a happy loop that goes on forever, eternally new as the past slips away from his memory. While his span of memory is anything less than the length of the loop, this rainbow experience is endlessly fulfilling. But as the span of his memory grows, the repetition of the loop becomes apparent. It grows dull as he begins to see it through the filter of his past experience.

So he leaves this place, seeking something new with more variation and unpredictability. In the human experience, we have what we experience today — the long trail of memory.

The closer we are to the Source, the shorter our span of memory, our context. The two are the same — we cannot be fully 100% in the now without completely letting go of all the memories that make us who we think we are.

I perceive at higher levels by feelings, knowings. They’re up the stream from images.

Behind my closed eyes, gazing at my visual field, I perceive overlapping explosions all over like pop rocks. These are not seen, but felt, then imagined into form. The feeling, the knowing, is higher up the stream, more generalized, closer to the origin of the undifferentiated signal, as it moves from infinite possibilities and perspectives, into feelings and finally into forms.

Feeling/knowing is perception at the mental level, above the astral/dream level. It’s perception of a reality higher up the stream. But without the beautiful variety of expression available in the astral and physical.

When we look into the eyes of another, accepting them completely, seeing them as perfect, faults and all, this brings forth the essence. As we do this, we see them bathed in a soft light. We see their probable reality field shining out. It’s like seeing a specific person under multiple exposures. We are seeing their similarity to all the other people we’ve known. They become all people. They feel connected to everyone we’ve known. Our energy flows into our experience and we begin to feel a wonderful flow and connection.

We are seeing them further up the stream towards the Source, more generalized and formless.

We perceive the Pure Essence when we open ourselves up. We are allowing love to flow into our experience. We are the source of the Pure Essence in our experience.

When I don’t see essence, it’s because my inner sight is closed. I’m distracted with other things. I see light reflecting off the exterior of things, not radiating from within them.

At night, I lay by my girlfriend, feeling how much she means to me. Her skin is glowing a purplish/bluish hue, as if lit by moonlight. The shadows are flashing.

I’m seeing truth through metaphor further up the stream from words. At levels closer to the Source like this, images and experiences communicate far faster and more universally.

All sensations melt into each other. They are all humps — neural signals. I’ve abstracted all sensations into signals and seen in that way they are all the same.

As we approach closer to the now, structure begins to vibrate and melt down into a sea of light. It’s the light of unformed pure potential before you, the light of the now.

There is a pulse from formless undifferentiated energy to form in every smallest instant. Everything we see is focused out of that unformed static — the base energy we use to form our visual impressions. We can move our attention away from form upstream towards that static and then reform it as it comes into focus. This is what I was doing when changing my girlfriend’s appearance.

The higher your conscious frequency is, the more deeply and clearly we see. We see with the benefit of more frames, more context.

Our perception isn’t limited by the frequency of our physical consciousness. At higher rates of perception (recorded, but not consciously aware of), we know what we hide from our conscious self. We know what others feel, think of us, what we deny — EVERYTHING. The total truth about ourselves and our lives. At those depths, wild emotion gives way to understanding.

As our rate of consciousness drops to 1/5, 1/50, we become more disconnected, more mired in the drama of emotions, afraid of what we’ll find if we look deeper.

Way out here in the physical, everything is so incredibly specific! Any given situation has its own time, date, place, surroundings. Things are more general at higher frequencies. Instead of individual situations, we perceive truths and patterns, then wider and more far-reaching truths and patterns.

There have been many studies examining the smallest amount of time that humans can perceive, with varying results depending on the stimulus and the individual, but it appears to be in the range of 1-5 milliseconds (ms). Hertz (Hz) is a measure of events per second, meaning we are able to perceive 200-1000 Hz. But our brainwave states typically have much slower frequencies.

Our brainwave frequencies are divided into several ranges. Gamma (heightened perception) is 30-140 Hz, Beta (awake) is 15-30 Hz, Alpha (relaxed) is 8-12 Hz, Theta (deeply relaxed) is 4-7 Hz, and Delta (deep, dreamless sleep) is 0.5-3 Hz.

Studies in the early 1990s by Rodolfo Llinás suggest that Gamma waves in the 40 Hz range are the mechanism for conscious attention. These waves originate in the thalamus and sweep from front to back of the brain, drawing different neuronal circuits into sync which is what binds all of our impressions into a single experience. Damage to the thalamus prevents this wave and conscious awareness no longer happens. This theory is called the “thalamocortical dialogue hypothesis for consciousness.” [source]

If true, this tells us that consciousness at the physical level is a synthesis of all our sense impressions at a specific frequency in the Gamma range. Attention focused in the physical causes an increased brainwave rate, into the higher Gamma (heightened perception) ranges. The stronger the attention, the faster the frequency. It is literally a state of experiencing more moments of psychological time than in states of unfocus or relaxation.

40 Hz is equivalent to one event every 25 ms. The top end of gamma, 140 Hz, is one event every 7 ms. This is very near the range of the fastest human perception of time of 1-5 ms mentioned above. For simplicity, let’s call 5 ms one “moment”.

Our experiences come to us a moment at a time, as if each moment were a frame in a movie reel (see “Attention Moves By Phasing” in attention.php).

The amplitude of brainwaves represents the power of the wave. Typical amplitudes vary between 20 to 100 microvolts (μV). Brainwave amplitude is the strength of the signal and increases with more synchronized brain activity. Delta (deep, dreamless sleep) has the highest amplitude and thus highly synchronized waves. Beta (waking) has the lowest amplitude due to the brain’s activity being scattered by many things.

My experience is that as brainwaves slow, they have higher energy (amplitude). This checks out with the science, as progressively slower frequencies like Alpha and Theta and Delta have progressively higher amplitudes.

Amplitude changes with age. Studies show an increase in resting gamma power between ages 3 and 4, then a slight decline from ages 4 to 11 and onward into adulthood. Resting gamma relates to linguistic and attentional abilities.

This corresponds to an increasing focus on the physical at ages 3-4, and then the continuing fragmentation of our attention into conditions as we get older.

Research by neuroscientist Richard Davidson showed that Tibetan monks, adept in meditation, show more high-amplitude gamma-band activity at baseline, and that rate significant increased during meditation — in fact they were the highest recorded in any healthy human. Movement of the gamma waves through the brain was far better organized and coordinated than novices. [source]

Studies on THC (the “active ingredient” of Marijuana) show lower amplitudes in slower-frequency brainwave states such as Theta and Fast Alpha, and higher amplitudes in Gamma. [source]

The focused Deep Attention state of marijuana relates to the higher amplitudes in Gamma, the state of heightened perception. The higher amplitude there shows the increased attention available, like the monks who have trained to be focused without distraction.

Our focus can hang up on people and situations for a long time. For example, Bodhi, Gwen, and I were on this lower rock, looking at the scene before us. After a few minutes, I began trying to get the kids to return to the main area, thinking we might be in some people’s pictures. While they dithered, I overheard someone behind us say something about some people being selfish and blocking the view. He was referring to us, though it wasn’t spoken to us. At some level I think he sensed that I heard him. After we returned to the top, we passed by someone who froze up, focusing on me without looking at me. He seemed clearly to be the one who spoke.

I held onto that little interaction for 5-10 minutes as we walked. During that time, it obscured my experience of the gorgeous physical environment of Moraine Lake around me, and bounced back to my attention at intervals.

Getting to a point where little conflicts don’t pull us away from the present is one of the primary challenges of life in the physical.

LSD and psilocybin melt down and release our full energy to flow freely in the experience of the now. In this state of Primal Awareness, we can really feel two very distinct modes of being — love and fear. Love feels like flowing with experiences in the now, and fear feels like freezing up, pulling back from experience. I perceived this effect as “tunneling”: love is expanding, moving forwards through a tunnel, and fear is constricting, moving backwards. I’m most aware of this current of being in the rare circumstances where it changes:

I distinctly experienced two very basic energy movements in the experience above: expansion and contraction. They describe our relationship with the now, and are equivalent to the two primary emotions: love and fear.

We feel this energy every time we interact with someone. Someone who is open with us (expanding towards us) feels warm, while someone who is closed up (contracting away from us) feels cold.

I felt this in vivid detail on my first LSD trip when a warm conversation with a friend hit a wall of cold. She closed up. Her tunneling reversed.

We know when someone’s relaxed around us. They give off a warmth. Describing someone as “warm” or “cold” reflects the energetic reality of the situation. At these energetic levels higher up the stream, we feel this and we know exactly where we stand. Every communication at these inner levels is true.

Imagine concentric circles expanding, like we are moving forward through a tunnel. Moving towards something is embracing it. This is the motion of love, curiosity, acceptance, and growth. We are expanding, embracing, becoming, and expressing. It is going forward into life to have new experiences. It is a person with open arms and open eyes, accepting, warm, and curious. It’s expanding into the world, continually present in the now, and able to change our fate. It is giving off a fountain of energy, waves radiating outwards from within us. What is hidden is expanding into awareness. Answers bubble up from the chaos.

This is being present in the now, the flow from the Source continually moving through us. This state is refreshing, regenerating. It regenerates the energy we use to focus our attention.

“Nothing gets to me” — the flow’s continual expansion from within washes away anything that might bother us or affect us negatively.

Tunneling forward brings us into higher frequencies of consciousness. Lower frequencies cannot approach the higher because the higher is flowing out so much faster. It’d be like swimming up a waterfall. This is also why directed negative thoughts don’t reach those who are fully present in the now. They simply can’t get through the person’s outward flow.

Expansion by Consecutive Moments: As consciousness maintains a focus, it also expands. We expand into the universal hologram equal to our continuous focus in the moment. In the following series of moments, imagine 1 is focus in the now and 0 is distraction from the past. With attention of 11111110111110, we have a focus and feel an expansion of 7 consecutive moments, and we see more clearly. A more distracted attention of 01101101000 has only 2 consecutive moments. Distractions RESET the expansion.

We expand outwards until our focus is broken by the distraction of desire or fear. Those in denial have to unfocus quicker to avoid the truth appearing.

When our awareness is constantly broken by distractions, the sphere of light starts over and over, not having much time to expand. The faster our attention jumps from thing to thing, the smaller its expansion on each thing.

Expansion by Overall Focus: I’ve also described this expansion as our overall focus in the now. The higher the percentage of moments we spend in the now (rather than consecutive moments), the more expanded we feel. In this case, it is diminished but not broken by each distraction.

The opposite is concentric circles contracting, like when you’re moving backwards through a tunnel. This is resisting our current experience. Moving away from something is fear. This is the motion of pulling away, resisting, rejecting, withdrawing, hiding, shrinking, closing, and reducing to nothing. It’s “shrinking” from pain. It’s being behind a dark, cold, protective shield. Things happen to us, change is resisted.

This is pulling back from the now, resisting your current experience. Our energy is held in, diminishing. We stop moving forward in psychological time. The now is moving away from us while we remain stationary.

Energy is condensing on us. “Everything gets to me, sticks.”

Where love is engaging with the now of experience, fear is pulling back.

When fear hits, we seem to have hit a sudden barrier and the direction changes from moving towards to moving away. We are rejecting this experience. This continues until we feel comfortable again, and we return to tunneling forward. In the experience above I was able to open up again and return to the feeling of expansion through self-love and acceptance.

All energy is in the now, not the future, not the past. We can’t change things when pulling back from the now. Change can only occur through engagement in the now. It is the only active point. Tunneling backward pulls us from the action, distances us from the moment. When we distance ourselves, we have nothing to do with what’s going to happen next, and become a victim of events.

Fear is always a freezing up to look into the past. As we breathe, we come forward, focus in the environment, and enjoy being into the now.

We can pull back or focus in on smaller scales, affecting just a part of our body.

My cat Cous-Cous pulled his energy in from his face as he felt he might get swatted at by his brother. Then it filled out due to his sudden urge to attack and pounce. The energy body pulls away, dries from places of fear, to try to numb pain or expected pain. It fills in due to engagement.

Looking in the mirror while on mushrooms, there seemed to be a current pulling away in my eyes.

A fear can find a potential match in our context and pull our attention to it. This strengthens the focus on the search (match found!) and holographically darkens everything else, including our mood. At these times, we may look to previous sources of pleasure (essence) to restore our good mood. We follow habitual patterns that work to make us feel better. This is why a tendency towards addiction doesn’t change as easily as the object of addiction.

The shape of the Source begins as an infinity symbol, the current looping around from one side to the other and back eternally. It’s also spinning rapidly along its long axis to appear solid in 3D, in the general shape of a peanut. I see it in a light orange color. Each stream of consciousness comes out of THAT. And that spinning along the axis forms a field in the shape of a torus on its side — the field of consciousness.

A moment is the back and forth of the wave of the infinity symbol across the center, from black to white and back, unending. Each cycle is a moment. Imagine a circle, where the center is pulsing out in a third dimension one direction then the other. One direction brings light, the other dark. The light is the signal. The dark gives it relative existence, distinction from something. This is the origin of time.

In every direction outside of the Source, long vortex tunnels reach off of it, like the tentacles of a sea anemone. Each one of these is an individual consciousness. Each tunnel is an individual’s pathway outwards from the Source. These tunnels wave around like tendrils as we change our focus (out at the tip).

The tunnels extend outward through frequency domains. The tips of the tendrils change proximity from the Source — relating to their primary world of focus (reincarnating, astral, physical). The distance from the Source is how far the tentacle or vortex tunnels away from it into slower frequency domains. Incarnation means your vortex goes further out for a time, into the physical world — the world that far out from the Source.

We are the tunnels to the Source. Our frequency is determined by how far away from the Source we are. Our direction away from the Source (our “tilt”) is based on our focus.

In my visions, I am flying among these tunnels. We can see through anyone’s eyes, feel the light or darkness of how far they are (distance and direction) from the Source.

As a whole, the vortexes of consciousness remind me most of the tentacles of a sea anemone, or the plasma filaments moving about in a plasma globe:

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Our focus is at the tip of our vortex tunnel. In the following, the tunnel would be non-physical, and only the face would have entered the physical.

Now let’s look within the tunnel.

The Source is the origin of time, of consciousness. The Source is flowing out in a flood of moments, going out in rings of black and white around the edges of the tunnel. It is the now, repeatedly happening. As it is repeated again and again out through the tunnel, it takes on context, which bit by bit warps the rows of mirrors until it becomes a person’s individual life. In this way, we become twisted in various directions away from the Source, which darkens the light of consciousness. By straightening the tunnel, the light of the Source flows more directly into us rather than through curves.

Our attachments, desires, and fears are what cause the tunnel to twist about as we shift focus to them. They pull our focus to the sides, “tilting” it in various directions. Our mind tunnels become literally “twisted” by strong attachments.

As ever, our subconscious awareness of this leaks into our language, often through slang. We feel “twisted up inside”, or “bent out of shape”. A scary person has a “twisted mind”.

Disney has a history of insightful animation. Their animation for hypnosis is eyes with expanding rings. This represents the frames of time in our tunnel back to the Source. Note that the eyes are tunneling forward, opening up. The insight continues in their use of snakes (Sir Hiss in Robin Hood and Kaa in The Jungle Book) as hypnotizers — their body is the tunnel itself.

We’re like fish in the stream of time, swimming forward in the force of the flow of time coming off the Source. It’s a torrent of moments, virtually identical, but changing. Each moment is one signal, one pulse. The closer we come to the Source, the faster moments flow past us. We experience them as fast as the weight of our past experience allows. The distance away from the Source is determined by the amount — the weight — of our attention focused in past experience. This weight causes friction, resistance in the stream, dragging us further away, reducing our frequency.

In Borderlands 4, the transport system is a very good representation of the view down the vortex. The bends especially show how we are turned differing degrees from the Source, obscuring the light at the end. At the last moment the tunnel straightens and we appear in a new place.

TO DO: How is the Source going out at infinite frequency, but also it is unchanging? We have time coming off it at infinite speed, and also barely at all? Is it similar to approaching a black hole?

What are we doing with this stream of moments coming towards us? We are saving them as memories. We are amplifying some memories with our attention, keeping them close. Others we are letting pass through us up the tunnel towards higher levels of the self. The ones we keep close contribute to our identity. We hold them close as inspiring, important, or dangerous. We keep touching them over time to keep their memory alive. Each pulls a little from the pool of attention that we have for new experiences.

At the end of the tunnel, the tip of the vortex, is the focal point of our physically-oriented consciousness. That focal point is in the center of a sphere of memory specific to a given frequency. That focal point casts a beam of light — the light of attention — out onto the sphere. As we change focus, this focal point rotates, focusing on various thoughts, memories, and sensations around the sphere.

The sphere itself is based on emotional meaning, one of the primary indexes of memory. Directly forward is the light of present sensations, the experience of the now. Facing it, we see straight up the tunnel, we see the infinite. The light diminishes the further away our focus is from that point in the sphere.

In X-Men comics, Professor X enters a spherical chamber to use Cerebro. The platform places him at the center of the sphere upon which his thoughts project.

The Sphere & Beam Model is a Holographic Model. The “beam” refers to the laser beam used in recording and viewing holograms, but in this case, it’s the higher-dimensional “beam” of the light of attention. The sphere, then, takes the place of a flat holographic plate. Rather, it’s a higher-dimensional projection — a full holographic physical reality springs up around us.

The Sphere & Beam is an essential building block. Each is a little universe; a current and its magnetic field; a focus and its resulting projection.

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This Sphere & Beam imagery has come to mind in several of my marijuana experiences. The imagery reflects how a magnetic field looks (see below). The field is caused by a continuous current of particles moving through the center (this is the beam). The electrons move out one end, then either move forward or return back to the entrance.

When pointed directly towards the Source, the tunnel becomes straight, and its light comes fully into view. The moments come faster, the light becomes brighter. We expand into our higher selves. We’re approaching the now, scrolling through moments faster, increasing our frequency, towards where reality is more fluid. We perceive reality further up the stream.

It’s like traveling down a row of mirrors — those frames of time up the tunnel towards the Source. This is equivalent to being focused outward in the now. It’s tunneling forward, completely open.

When pointing a video camera at the screen it is outputting to, you see an endlessly repeating frame with light in the center (see below). This is called optical feedback. This is the row of mirror effect without our own body obscuring it. This happens when we direct our orientation straight towards the Source, towards the bright light at the center.

When this happens, the vortex tunnel no longer curves — it is straight as an arrow. It has reached enlightenment.

Glinda’s wand in Wicked instantly reminded me of the shape of the Source and its vortex tunnels as well, with the addition of the bulges along the vortex tunnels representing the selves in various frequency domains. The longer ones go out further — all the way to the physical:

Image credit to the Wicked movie

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In addition, the fact that the vortex tunnels are all straight would represent that they are all enlightened, in the now, focusing directly on the Source. No attention is being pulled off to the sides towards lesser things, curving the tunnels.

Attachment causes the focus to turn to the sides in the stream. This causes the row of mirrors to pull to one side or another. That pull is caused by the “tilt” of our focus; a direction and degree off from pointing straight at the Source.

The tunnel is like a row of mirrors. The light from the now diminishes the further away we turn from the center. The light dims because it’s a series of tilted reflections.

Another depiction, but in the form of a vortex, and with the energy “beam” coming up the spine.

We turn away from the now to the fading lights of our attachments, each a FILTER through which our experience of the now is run through. We are jumping between different projections from different thoughts.

Focusing on desires, fears, and expectations from the past eclipses the essence, tilts us away from the Source. The worse the day, the more we shut ourselves to it, diminishing the light we put in it. We think the now has nothing to offer us — an observation only possible because we’re already filtering all the light out of it.

To the degree that we close, we redirect our attention inwards towards past lights. In that semi-darkness, the little lights of past delights draw our attention. They glow with the light of the attention that we’ve projected into them in the past. Here in the relative darkness, they seem to glow more brightly. Often we return our focus to their dim lights. If still available, we bring ourselves to enjoy them again, trying to recapture that feeling.

It’s the contrasts that cause attachment. Without contrast, little from the past can draw our attention out of the brilliant now.

We keep these thoughts going by repeatedly feeding them attention over time, and in turn they call on us to keep looking at them, attending to them, out away from the bright light of the now.

Our past experiences are flashing their bright lights of stored attention back up at us as they recede into memory. “Don’t forget us! Don’t forget us! Look again! There’s something good here!” This is what the fading lights of thoughts say to us, tilting our orientation away from the Source in the direction where they are stored. This changes the light settings on our experience — we experience life LITERALLY FROM THAT ANGLE. And from that particular focus, now other related thoughts are nearby, thoughts with a similar “bent” (all these clever terms sneaking into our language). Each past experience has a proximity to others, which may then pull our attention next.

We “put something behind us” when we forget it. We let it fall from our attention, fall away into the past where it doesn’t bother us, doesn’t pull at our attention anymore.

Imagine that little focus is, in a way, magnetic, and rests in the center of the larger magnetic sphere. Our focus turns in various directions as it “bounces” between different attractions in a magnetic way. Our purpose is to live in the now by aligning with the larger field.

When you stop focusing on one stream of thought, your attention moves to the next strongest light.

This is where the Sphere & Beam Model connects to the “Fading Lights Model” and “Flash Bounce Model”. see “The Recurrence of Strong Experiences” in attention.php.

The movement of our eyes when thinking gives a good idea of how our internal focus shifts around — the shifts and their frequency reflect inner focuses. Where our eyes look when we’re thinking reveal if our focus is on memory, creativity, and so on.

Each consciousness is generally oriented toward the Source, and since the Source is the now, memories recede on outwards past us. When we focus on a memory (desire, fear, belief), we tilt ourselves in the direction of that memory, causing the tunnel to curve, and causing that memory to be projected out towards our experience.

I see this spherical sheet of reflective squares, floating in mind space, they dent and bend through the pull of past experiences. They tilt our frame when they draw our attention, due to the charged past experiences behind them. To me this appeared in a crystalline form, the charged memory slightly blurred through it. Focusing on it tilts the panel, changing our orientation in the tunnel.

The effect reminds me of the blurred, faceted force field armor in Dune (1984):

This is the story of how we forgot who we were and found ourselves again. How we spun out of the Source, and spiraled about trying to find love, trying to find and accept infinite love. How we chased the things we mistook as the Source, which our attention shone its light into out in the physical world.

Those magnetic weights pull our focus downstream from the Source, into the past. As we allow our attention to return to them less and less, they lose their magnetic pull, and we can spiral around closer to the Source before reaching “full magnetic alignment” and facing directly towards it, which means ALL of our attention is on the Source, nothing held back in other wants, needs, fears. None of the literal magnetic weights of attachments pulling us away from the Source.

The path of our attention creates these cascades of the Source’s flow as we move our focus around relative to the Source.

The patterns cascade down from the Source as we look up the tunnel towards it. The cascade is due to the position we’re facing relative to the Source. It’s like looking up in a cascade of water, as it falls in every direction around us. For example, if we’re looking a little bit below the Source, the Source cascades above us. The form of the cascade is constantly shifting about based on our changing focus relative to the Source. As we tilt our focus back and forth, the cascade pours down around us on every side. Of course, it’s our attachments from the past pulling our attention away from the Source.

The cascade approaches from the distant center of the tunnel, the lights getting bigger and spreading out as they approach us. Like the tiny objects getting bigger out of the center in a fractal.

Because the cascade is a fractal pattern, there are countless recursions of the source pattern within it. Each of these leads back to the Source if we focus on them. Each leads back to the intensified energy and flow at the center of the cascade. This is how the Source speaks to us through any context. Consciousness stares, eternally enraptured by the patterns coming from the Source, our individuality defined by where we focus in the pattern, and where we focused in the past.

This stream of consciousness is distinct from the experience of the physical. It’s the frequency of moments we experience, our openness to the flow, to love.

We travel certain parts of the cascade, take certain paths in life from the infinite ways the cascade can spiral off. In the infinite possibility spiraling off the Source in the cascade, our attention chooses one path to follow, to pay attention to. We light that path up, remember it out of the many possibilities as what we did. That becomes our path, our memory. The life we experience consists of continuously choosing paths out of these possibilities.

The physical universe is something that is attracting us (our interest), just as any object that approaches an electrically-charged wire creates a spark. The “proximity” of the 3D universe is calling the tunnels (vortexes, filaments, tentacles) of people’s consciousness towards itself to explore it, like the filaments in plasma globes reaching out towards a touch on the outside, or like an octopus reaching out to a ball. This physical world is “passing through our minds” right now, where it’ll reach a maximum connection (interest) from the Source before diminishing again as it moves away.

The tip of the tunnel of consciousness, once it reaches the physical, is being jerked all about by physical needs. The “frame” of the tunnel to the Source being pulled hard by the physical body, tilting us away from happiness towards fulfilling the need. These are the physical body’s “hooks” on consciousness. As souls, we calm the physical body and grant insight. In return, the physical body provides a stream of sensation and experience, and a context through which we experience the physical world.

I feel like the Source object could actually be one of many Sources of different shapes and sizes, floating in a sea of higher-dimensional objects — different universes.

Intuition is a communication. By releasing our focus on ourselves, we are free to become anything.

Underneath the noise are the swells of feeling, of emotion.

We are watching the great changes in society in slow motion. Further up the stream there is a more perfect world, but we’re holding back from it. The flow is trying to take the physical human tide along with waves of internal evolution.

When we allow ourselves to open up, we are informed by that grander vision. We can open up to more perfect ideas, grander ideals up the stream. They are always there for us to be a part of. We participate in their becoming a reality further down the road. Some of these influences come from probable realities.

Some are in resistance to these changes. This collective resistance pushes against the higher ideals, and delays (but can never stop) their emergence.

With Deep Attention, each thought lights up other connections and brings forth new realizations. Our awareness expands outward like ripples in a pond to all our other experiences, questions, and beliefs. As it does so, it makes connections, finds deeper relevance in our current experience, and sees it in an expanded light (context).

In the board game Balderdash, people make up definitions for words.

Seeing all these similarities and connections reveals the innate interconnectedness of all things.

When we return to such a primal state, then answers come quickly to our questions. The deep pulse directly from the Source fills in the unknown context of the question. That much larger context makes the answer clear.

All our questions are answered as clearly as our language, knowledge and experience allows.The more knowledge and experience we have, the clearer the truth can be, the more precisely we can receive the answer

On marijuana, I keep going into the dream to observe things, then coming back to write down what I see. Rest into the dream state, focus to come out and write. When I go into the dream state, my eyes are open, but my attention is not physically-focused. (now I shift back into dreaming. . . .)

(. . . and return to write) This time, everything is being explained to me in different sized waveforms — jagged waves like an EEG, changing size, moving closer (getting larger) and farther away (getting smaller). I observe that, in this waveform language, when we become present in the now the waveform expands and appears up close.

How do I see this information? Direct observation of wave forms, expressed in physical metaphor, then translated to words.

This waveform communication is like a halfway point of language between us — my self writing here, and my nonphysical self.

There are infinite perspectives through which the truth can shine, and infinite metaphors that it can be revealed through. When we focus on a truth, useful physical metaphors for it may appear to us. When we focus on a form, truths may shine forth, using that form as an example.

Focus on a truth -> infinite forms can come through

Focus on a form -> infinite truths can come through

Metaphor is the confluence of two input streams — our physical experience and our higher knowing.

The perception of truth from within is called intuition. It is available to all consciousness everywhere, ever flowing through the very nature of consciousness.

Focusing on forms: The truth speaks through the personal experience and life context of each consciousness. It’s the nature of the flow to be able to communicate with every consciousness in this way. When fully focused in the moment, truth speaks through our current experience. We can gain a deep understanding of the universe by watching otters playing. The wind in the trees whispers truths to us. see “Speaking Through Forms” below.

Focusing on truth: When perceiving a truth, each “imagines” it in their own way, their best metaphor. Our physically-oriented consciousness experiences it in physical terms — through language and physical forms that are meaningful to us. A starfish would understand this feeling, this knowledge, in its terms. Each life form is a mode of experience — a unique lens through which physical reality is perceived, a different way of knowing.

The Source is speaking newly, now, through the very context of your life in this moment.

Messages and metaphors come as reorganizations of physical perceptions through new contexts. The drum swish in a song is formed into words, a poster says something to us that we never noticed before. Within the flow, everything finds immediate, personal relevance.

There is no limit to the ways in which it can reveal itself.

The truth is whispering through whatever our focus is. But too often our focus is changing so fast, we can’t hear it. It takes time for the pattern to emerge from the cascade. We have to be focused long enough for it to enlarge out to us. Because it’s tiny. The Source, inherent in every signal, becomes everything. It’s fractal geometry — the original pattern keeps revealing itself within what it becomes. Through whatever I’m experiencing or thinking of. The flow became that thought or experience, so the inherent pattern is in there, too. Distraction keeps us from looking at something too long, fearing what will be revealed.

Different frequency domains determine how long we have to focus before the truth enlarges out to us. Out here in the physical, it takes the longest.

The universal uses the specific as a metaphor for truth. You have a question? Your experience is the answer.

Anything can become a focus for the Pure Essence to speak. The truth can speak through anything we become. Attention takes the form of whatever we focus on, and we gain insight through that becoming.

The truth speaks to us in terms that are relevant to us. Thus truth comes through equations for the physicist, through clouds and ocean waves for the sailor. Truth is channeled through form and that form becomes a metaphor. If our consciousness is in the now, undistracted, then we experience the Pure Essence, and it tells us the secrets of the universe through whatever it is we are focused on:

This theory or that blade of grass is used to explain all things. This pen becomes 100% relevant, becomes a metaphor for everything. It reflects everything. As I concentrated fully on the taste of a pickle, I got message: “the universe is like the taste of a pickle,” and I saw that it was so. It becomes completely relevant. And now my full attention is on cheese. “The texture of cheese is a perfect metaphor for what you just said,” it says. It joins ideas to the real world, it melds them, creates meaning through relevance. Infinite relevance and all knowledge is shining though whatever thought or context I am currently using. A story literally comes out of the pattern in the woodwork.

The more focused in the moment we are, the more what we are experiencing now is generalized and seen as connected to everything else. We see similarities between this moment’s experience and the experience of many other moments. The now becomes the connecting point between all experiences. Everything becomes relevant. This relevance speeds up consciousness. The entirety of life becomes like what we’re experiencing right now, as we open up to all of it.

This kind of experience is further up the stream towards pure energy on its way to form. In this state, we’re in a more malleable, general, connected consciousness.

Our open attention connects us to the world around us and reveals a perfect world where everything is immediate and meaningful. It is perfect because it is beyond compare — beyond the filters of comparison, desires, and fears that could render it less than perfect.

We open and let the Pure Essence flow through our attention into our surroundings. With full acceptance, our attention becomes (takes the form of) everything we perceive, and we are reunited with ourselves (the Pure Essence) through those forms. We literally see ourselves in whatever we focus on. And this is where the meaning lies.

To see meaning (Pure Essence) in everything is to see its relation/likeness to us. Empty of searching, we see the Pure Essence everywhere and in everything. We see everything’s relationship to us and to everything else. We perceive things higher up the stream where everything is more connected. Compassion arises from this, for each person is translated back to the very same origin as us.

Holographically, then, the only reason all meaning doesn’t shine forth from everything is that a) the attention is divided, and b) we are using the essence to find something we are looking for. When we look through Specific Search filters, our experience is harnessed only for the use of that search. When focused on a desire, fear, or question, the potential relevance and meaning is limited to that. When searching for food, the only thing that has meaning is food. When searching for safety, only things that provide safety have meaning. If a thing can’t satisfy our desire, it is not even seen by the attention. We’re separated from the essence until we find what we’re looking for.

Some of the dreams we don’t remember are because they are so far removed from the physical. I can remember these from time to time.

As babies, our physically-oriented consciousness was not developed, and we instead focused in our higher consciousness. We learned super advanced spiritual metaphysics in our dreams and visions. We knew so much then. We dreamed of it, we looked at it, remembered it, yet didn’t know its relevance to the new physical world around us.

Those primordial visions and dreams could enlighten the world, but we forget as we get older and become focused exclusively in the physical world. We forget because we find no place for such things in our daily lives. As children, we note that adults ignore them, pretend they don’t exist, and eventually we do, too, as we focus on mastering physical life. Now, older, our access to it is by remembering it.

This is like mental cartography. So much of this is trying to describe the realizations I have in enough detail so that I can understand it later. I’m trying to build a bridge between states of mind so that my everyday mind can understand what I’m experiencing. As I go over my writings later, I remember knowing what I wrote on a deeper, more complete level, and the words don’t convey all of it. I know things from seeing them, experiencing them firsthand. Words are clumsy tools!

There are dreams and experiences which are so distant and removed from anything we know that they are hard to remember, for there is very little connecting that reality to our waking reality. There needs to be some connection, otherwise it won’t reach our physically-oriented consciousness.

When in a Deep Attention state, for example, we have access to great insights, but we will only remember them if we can hold the thought long enough to write it down as clearly as possible. In this way we build a bridge to our regular self.