Dream Journal
July 26, 1996
I’ve been wanting it so badly and asking and asking. I found myself in a dim place. . . . Maybe in this room. . . . Yes, it might have been, with some who were psychic. One pointed out where a spirit was. It was a yellow substance, and I mixed it up with a stick to little effect. Then more people appeared, as guides, ready to take me out of my body. It was Rebecca, Bethany, and Jon (who I don’t know in waking life). Bethany, at times, appeared as her look-alike from Oberlin. I felt as big as the room, my head almost near the ceiling (perhaps I was floating)! Rebecca was out-of-body and took my hand while I was standing and lifted me. We floated up through the ceiling, through another floor and ceiling, then we were on the roof, the wooden roof with. . . . It was just like the roof here. It WAS the roof here! I was incredulous and glowing and so excited and full of energy! I tried to move and fly, but had trouble. Jon said he had been to church once and was touched by God and. . . . I don’t remember the conclusion. We sat on the roof with the stars above, smiling, floating, weightless. I kept feeling the pull of gravity, out of habit. How to fly? I turned belly-up and felt the expansiveness of the sky and began floating up! I experimented with this and got a little better.
Then I re-experienced going up through the ceilings. (Did I do it again or experience my own “memory” rote?)
I asked Rebecca if she’d gone to the moon or experienced flying all over or other people’s conversations and she said no and I wanted to do it all! I had to experience the moon and she and I teleported there and were afraid to look down and there was the earth off in the distance and we were afraid and returned instantly.
Perhaps with Jon’s help, I learned to fly and move. CLICK! I was suddenly involved in a story about some guy I was supposed to hate who had hurt “my girl” (this was Jon’s rote). I saw the guy and wanted to follow him around (in spirit form) to find out more. I followed him just by wanting to. The pull came from my chest. It felt like I stuck it out in the direction I wanted to go and floated in that direction.
Did I paste the identities of Rebecca and Bethany on these spirit-friends due to the intensity of love I felt from them? I might have, since Bethany changed to Oberlin Bethany.
Oh! And after the experience, I woke up in the class, thinking this had all happened during some sort of test. I went to tell my teacher, who had a moustache and big smile and was excited to hear about it. I was so happy, I was almost in tears! Was this my soul teacher? He had a familiar feel.. Like he was watching me . . . and I was looking into his eyes (again) when I woke up.
I woke up with a great deal of alertness, almost the same level of the out of body experience. It is real. No possible harm done. I was out-of-body!!!
And I knew it’d be a powerful dream night, too. As I fell asleep I said “I’m slowly, groggily, waking up.” And so now as I write, I’m falling . . . asleep. . . .:)
Rotes: I got a rote from Jon, went into his memory-story as him following someone.
OBE: Everything about this OBE was exactly as it should have been in a real OBE except that I wasn’t fully lucid during it or the memory of it faded from my transitions into the rote and out of the classroom before waking. The room I started in was my physical room — the room I passed through was really there, and the roof was the actual roof of the building.
But the fact that I woke up from this experience in a classroom makes it a subdream? I must have gone back to my physical environment to experience the OBE while in the classroom dream? How odd..
Classroom: I awaken from this OBE into a classroom, so as real as this was, this OBE must have been a rote, translated to my actual physical environment and people I knew.
Partial Mapping: This is a rote, since I “wake up” from it in a dream class. It’s odd that Rebecca was mapped, Bethany was sort-of mapped (why would Bethany’s look-alike appear at all, unless it was only an appearance match), and Jon wasn’t mapped at all.
Maybe it’s because I don’t have a supportive male friend.
Waking Eyes: In several of my dreams, I have met eyes with someone like a guide and there is this really intense eye contact where things get really clear and yet wobbly, and then I instantly awaken and remember everything. It seems that is their intent when this happens.
How to Fly: Here I use a technique to fly that I’ve used several times. If you are in a stomach-down position and feel the gravity expectation pulling you down, you can flip over and that same sensation of gravity will instead pull you up.
Movement — Pulling: My desire to follow him pulled me after him.
Memories Are Rotes: Being that the goal was to be with everyone on the roof, this must have been either a momentary reliving of the recent memory or a rewind and replay of the scene. Is there a difference? Once I experience something in a rote, it’s accessible to me via memory.
The Corner Ceiling Rationalization: This is the spherical sight rationalization, where to explain how you’re seeing the whole room, you rationalize that you must be in the corner of the room up by the ceiling. This “corner ceiling” phenomenon is a common OBE experience. In this case, I felt big since I felt like I was standing but my head was near the ceiling.