Dream Journal

I’ve been thinking about Jarrin lately, about how he’s doing, what he’s up to. But I figure he probably hates me. (This is 12 years after I graduated.)

I dream I’m in a grocery store and walking out with some groceries when I see him pass by with his mother. I reach out and say “Jarrin?” and he sees me but keeps walking. His mother stops and she talks with me a little. I walk along with her, talking, but Jarrin stays ahead. I ask what they’re doing in Georgia. Jarrin’s mom says he’s doing something in a city I don’t recognize. I eventually run ahead and talk with him, even though he’s not interested. I say that I honestly have no idea why he hates me so much. I ask him why. He thaws just a tiny bit but is still cold.

Then later I’m with Jarrin and about 20 friends of his hanging out at this college campus. I go right up to him, having just seen him. We make light conversation. Jeff comes by with some friends, but I’m more interested in talking to Jarrin at this point. I end up hanging out with Jeremy and Tony Tam and a bunch of others laying in a pile watching TV, barely conscious. Jeremy’s a dealer of some kind.

At some point I and some others visit our high school. It’s modern but badly made, swollen at the seams. I commented about the giant plastic baby doll’s head that used to be atop it (I have no idea where that came from).

Then there’s a long segment where I’m hanging out with Joleen and it seems like it lasts days but it’s full of unhappiness and fighting. Just before I wake up, I pack up my things and tell her it’s over. She says she’ll always have feelings for me. I think a moment, then walk out.

References: Jarrin, Jeff, Jeremy, and Tony Tam are friends from high school.