Dream Journal
March 12, 2024
Context: Taylor Swift was dating a football guy around this time.
I’m eating breakfast at a tiny rooftop restaurant tucked away in the outskirts of a mall. The kitchen is basically a hallway and there’s a door out to a sloping rooftop with one table on the only flat part of it. It’s up several stories. My memory begins as I’m getting up, about to leave. The cook hurries out to talk with me, recalling that I’m such a good conversationalist. He and the waiter want to talk with me a bit more before I go. I sit down again on the roof near the door. A few more people appear outside the door, to my right. The cook mentions them and I turn my head and see Taylor Swift sitting next to me. I refer to her as “a girl who looks like Taylor Swift” but I’m sure it’s actually her.
I start to talk with Taylor and I’m being clever and funny. We leave the roof and walk down the hallway together. She pulls me into a bathroom and we kiss. She begins to initiate sex, and I hesitate for a moment, remembering that I’m married. Then I realize this is the dream state and go for it. It’s wet, and brief, but good.
We begin walking about the mall. Half of it is closed off and in darkness, and we decide to explore some of the closed areas. We’re about to go into one but notice a security guard standing near the entrance, facing away. He turns and sees our interest, and says he would look the other way for $210. We continue on and find another way in.
At some point Taylor’s close friend joins us as we wander the darkened corridors. I keep being funny and clever. We come to a big room with a concrete wall in front of us, but it’s about 20% transparent and we can see through it to a football game taking place on the other side. I make a subtle joke about how it would be so weird to be playing out there, with so many people looking at you. “Could you even imagine that?” (haha)
All the details are fading now. We stayed together for a long time, had many adventures.
Note: I pretty much never think of Taylor Swift in waking life. I can’t name one of her songs, and probably wouldn’t recognize her if she was sitting next to me.
Confidence: I love that I’m being clever and funny in a social setting in the dream state. I’m rather introverted in waking life. I certainly have it in me, but prefer to be on my own. Yet I’m always happiest when I’m being open and socializing with good friends in waking life. It appears I instead do my socializing in my dream life.
Because the mall was darkened but not creepy, it seems likely it was a real physical location in the near realm. Taylor’s initiative in kissing me and so on was unexpected, so it was clearly another dreamer I was hanging out with. This is true for the security guard asking for a bribe as well.
The Football Game: I doubt this was really Taylor Swift. But it’s odd that this football scene appeared. She was dating a football guy around this time. If it was her, she could have been thinking of him, and I saw through into her dream context for a moment. Perhaps to her we weren’t wandering through a mall but a football stadium. Or perhaps it’s something I thought of in relation to her and it got projected/overlaid onto the scene.
Taylor Swift Again: It was just two months earlier that I remembered hanging out with Taylor Swift (or someone I took to be her) in the dream state. And now she shows up here when I’m socializing.
Permission Granted: I check in with my waking self, remember I’m married, but realize at some level that I’m dreaming and that it’s okay to proceed.