Dream Journal
January 17, 2024
Context: I'm one of the two coaches of Jamie's futsal team.
I was walking across a grassy field with a guy that looked like Jeff Goldblum. I was a coach and had a bunch of soccer videos made by my players, though I didn’t see them. Actually, I think they appeared like rolls of colored wrapping paper. I set them down on my childhood bed from my room in Blaine House. It was up against the wall. So once again a field of grass had become bounded in space by my childhood bedroom in Blaine House. I feel like the bed appeared because I wanted a place to set down the videos. The bed was invisible at first, made of the depth field but looking like the grass behind it, shaped spatially into the form of a bed. As I focused on it, it took on the proper colors, and the scene of the field faded into my bedroom. Again, this was the bed with the pink and yellow cover from my early childhood.
The bed was against the wall it was usually against, but rotated 90°. We walked up to it and I set the wrapping paper (videos) down on it. The guy wanted to watch the videos but I thought a parent probably shouldn’t since they were meant for coaches. At this point I began to clean up garbage from the bed — bits of wrapping paper scraps and plastic. To the side of them was the plastic molding for a model kit — the kind used for model airplanes and such. I checked it and almost all of the pieces were taken out. I thought back to waking life and got the feeling that I had completed building that big gift that I got, so I looked back at the model and now ALL the pieces were taken out. I picked up the model scraps to throw away, too.
Now this is crazy — the big gift I got? It was the Rivendell Lego set I got for Christmas this year. I had just completed it a day or two ago. But the person I was at that age when I had the pink and yellow bed cover? He hadn’t heard of Legos yet. But he HAD built a model battleship and a model airplane. So the idea of the big Lego building project appeared to him in terms he knew — as a model kit. So I was very much in the mind of myself at maybe 6-7 years old! But I was adult sized in the dream.
When my attention turned to the plastic molding, the bed was against the sliding glass doors. I wondered about my waterbed, which replaced this bed a few years later. I thought, “Shouldn’t the bed be the waterbed?”
References: Jeff Goldblum is an actor.
Grassy Field Overlay: Once again, just like in “Bedroom Soccer”, a grassy field becomes bounded spatially by my early childhood bedroom in Blaine House.
7 Years Old: Fascinating! As I’d brought forth my childhood bedroom, I moved into the mind of myself when I was 6-7 years old. Focusing on the model airplane kit, I knew my waking self had been building something. I reached out about it, and got the response that I’d completed it. The fact that it was a Lego set didn’t matter, and so this knowledge applied itself to the model airplane kit (also a building project), which meant all the pieces were done and used.
Wrapping Paper: Their rotes are brightly colored and rolled up. This is an unusual rationalization that captures their “rolled up” nature. Monroe sometimes describes entering rotes as “unrolling” them.
7-Year-Old Timeframe: The time when I had this bed covering was about the same time I was briefly into doing models. I got some as gifts, and built them, but they weren’t my favorite thing.