Dream Journal
before 1990
[I’m at a rally, talking, playing around with people]
Someone grabs me and tells me to come quickly for something. I follow him to my car. “You have to fire the missile. They’re crossing the station front!” He hands me a controller. I just nonchalantly hit “fire”. Then I get in the car to see what happens. A visor comes down, a view screen appears, and a pressure equalizer starts to work. I hear “Hold breath” on the intercom. Water rises and closes over the vehicle. I notice the missile path on the view screen and try to steer it into an enemy submarine. It’s too late. It misses and hits a ridge, but the explosion succeeds in knocking the submarine over and damaging some systems. We go to the surface and tell control that that’s all that we can do. We land and hang up our banner. Control tells us to go back down IMMEDIATELY and finish the job. We do.
[There is a big battle. We’re told to self-destruct our submarine while everyone else evacuates]
My dad is the co-pilot. We land our submarine on theirs and set the self-destruct timer. Then dad swims to the surface and I take a diving suit up to the surface, which is the floor of our basement. We climb the stairs to the main level of the house. Dad stands directly above the location of the two subs. I go into my room and hide behind the thickest walls. Mom stands in the loft. The blast comes. I see it — a slow-moving shockwave of intense heat moving towards me. I’m not protected enough. I scramble out the window for another wall of protection. I close my eyes and take the blast. When I open them again, the house is devastated. The deck wall is shredded, blown out two feet off the deck, showing nails. Most of what’s in the house is either turned to dust or knocked over and slightly charred. Every opening — windows, arches — is melted down to a small molten opening. The walls around the pool room are all blasted outwards. The spot where dad stood had a small black circle that also appeared on the ceiling. Was he totally disintegrated, or did he move? I have moments of fear, but we find him outside. He’d gone out behind the wall I was standing near.
References: A rally is a youth gathering at Unity Church.
Slow-Motion Explosion: The explosion is moving towards me so slowly I have time to reposition myself further away.
Transformation Behind Closed Eyes: The destruction of the house would likely not have happened if I had kept watching, but closing my eyes gave the thought form of Blaine House a chance to change to my new expectation of it.
Most interesting to me is that the window and arch openings are all melted into smaller openings — as if the walls melted down over them. Melting is astral matter’s natural way of being “destroyed”.
Earth Becomes Sea: We swim up and the surface is the floor of Blaine House. Water surfaces seem to sometimes act as scene transitions.
The Stranger’s Will: I’m socially dreaming, when a stranger runs in and starts giving me instructions. Without thinking, I follow them and attack an enemy submarine. After the transition to the submarine I refer to them as “control”, and continue following their commands.
In waking life, I am not one to blindly follow orders. This seems like the behavior of the hypnotic waking self.