Dream Journal
August 1, 2010
Immediately upon waking up and going back to sleep, I found that my satori was this fast-moving single pulse of dim light moving from the periphery to the center of my visual field. The rate of the light waves was maybe 1-2 per second.
My focus interrupted it pretty quickly. The first effect was that it went from one pulse to two that went to the center of each hemisphere (simply the effect of switching to binocular perception). The waves then slowed down and eventually stopped moving altogether, resulting in two stationary blobs of dim light. Before this, dream visions were coming rapidly, but now I couldn’t get through into the visions at all.
Then I began to relax again, removing my focus from the satori. It began to slowly move again, in the manner I’ve often described: the slow gathering from the exteriors to the center. So this is how it begins, and it ends with the well-defined pool of dim light underlying dreams!
Seeing Fast Satori: In the beginning, the Satori waves take about 4 seconds to move from the perimeter to the center. After the Satori creates the pool that we use to cross over into dreams, it continues on to this state, increasing its frequency to this fast-moving, tight ball of light 1-2 times per second, continually washing out and regenerating the neurons and the mind throughout the night. It seemed that, upon going back to sleep, I picked right up where it left off until I started focusing on it.
It would make sense if this continuous washing-out of attention is responsible for the shortened context of the waking self in dreams.