Dream Journal
July 21?, 1997
This dream happened while we were sleeping in the car while parked at a Texaco, me leaning back and Rebecca laying across me. The dream, somehow, took that very shape, like the buildings were modeled after us.
It started with Rebecca and I getting really high. Then she said she wanted to go out alone and I couldn’t believe it. She was wearing a low-cut nightgown top and lots of necklaces. Chris L started talking to her cleavage and drooling so I hit him with a towel. He was really upset and I wondered how justified I was.
Then I recall fog, darkness, then a JUMP! Rebecca and I are in a car teetering over a cliff, but she is able to back the car away from the edge. She is injured in the back so I carry her, floating part of the way, to safety. I ask what happened and I see the story of this guy holding her by the jewelry out the window of a building and my rescue attempt which got me beat up. We leave the building. It’s dark as anything outside and this guy starts following us. I tell him off but he continues.
Then darkness and JUMP! I’m pulling consciously out of the dream. My desire for happy experiences with Rebecca is behind it. I “open my eyes” and it’s so dark in the car but there’s Rebecca in full color and light laying across me (my eyes are physically closed). She turns to meet my eyes and I pour love out to her and say “Sorry, I love you” and she expresses the same to me — a very nice moment, and very clear. Almost lucid. I felt the dream pulling me back at one point but willed myself to remain in this happier space.
Falling Asleep: Full REM sleep was only moments away.
Rote Replay: The answer to my question of what happened was a immersive replay of the experience — a rote. And I was in it! Either I blacked out that part, or we entered a rote in the middle of the story, and when I asked what happened, the original character’s past actions came to me as backstory.
A Greater Self-Awareness: This dream illustrated a greater self-awareness. In my dream self focus, I realized I was responsible for taking part in the horrible dreams I just had with Rebecca and when I saw her in the near realm, we both knew the unreality of what had just happened in the dreams and chose to replace the negative feelings with our true feelings of love. Thus a false dream gave way to a true experience.
Telepathic Communication: Telepathic communication in the near realm is as easy and natural as speaking in the physical.
The Shape of Dreams: I’ve gotten this sense at several times, where memories are stored with certain body positions, where dream places have definite shapes, related to body positions or the “shape” of various kinds of thoughts.