Dream Journal
July 6, 1997 @ 4:30AM
We’re in an area near the Tower. I take some time off from normalcy to star in this new horror movie, Cracker Brain.
We’re in an gym. It started as a Weezer music video for “The Good Life”. We were all dressed in 80s style and the first ones to arrive at a party. We were dancing when Cracker Brain showed up. It was this ultrafast humanoid creature who carried wooden spears with him. He used them to spear his own brain and pin his head to the wall or ceiling for escape and positioning. He could travel across the ceiling this way and then would throw splinters of the wood spears at people.
He killed everyone but me. I was running around wondering what to do when I got cornered. I decided to play dead. It worked — it became very curious and approached with great caution. Then I jumped up and scared it and ran. Then I tried it again. Same story — the thing didn’t learn! The third time I had a plan. It came up the curtain to the edge of the second floor where I was hiding a sledge hammer. Slowly, slowly. . . . I could read its fears. Only when most afraid could it be grabbed and that’s what I did. It got really close, was ready to strike, and I grabbed it by the shirt. There was a big tug of war and my goal was to pull it from the curtains and drop it so it would die. But I gave up fighting because it was just a movie and I just didn’t care (a theme recently). It grabbed me and pulled me off the edge. The film ended and I went to Cracker Brain to find that it was a short, young Asian lady!
References: Weezer is a band.
Horrible Creatures: I dislike horror movies. So why did I choose to star in one? Perhaps because I was at The Tower, the place of challenges.
There are creatures so horrible in my dreams that I could never have thought them up while awake. How do you defeat a creature who travels by spearing poles through its own brain?
But this was a “movie”, and Cracker Brain was just an actress, it seems.
Giving Up the Fight: Just like the dream the night before, at one point I decided not to fight anymore. This is the best strategy. In a dream, the fight will last as long as one’s will holds out. Attention only intensifies the negativity, and brings the waking self further into the situation.