Dream Journal
April 3, 1997
I dreamed that Rebecca was off visiting some lame old guy. When she returned, there were love notes written on her glasses case: “Do you flirt with Benji like you do with me?” and so on. I was in a jealous fit and said “Well this is a dream anyways.” I left this bigger version of our room through the window and came back in through the window above. I was now in Blaine House and I was saying “It’s a dream, right? I’m in a dream.” I had a hell of a time putting on underwear, pants, and shoes.
Then Joshua and I went into the garage. I thought I had forgotten my glasses and contacts because I couldn’t see clearly. I said “Clarity now!” and my vision became clear. I was about to start flying and trying to go OB, but got distracted. Maeve came by. Joshua and I started doing cartwheels in a huge mud puddle. Then I saw a stump that had turned into artwork. Jess started telling me about her friend Kari’s tragic marriage. After all these distractions I forgot I was dreaming. So close.
Rebecca’s and my room was mixed with Dan and Rox’s room, with the green rug and big open space.
Lucidity and Distraction: After getting emotionally drawn into jealousy, I get tired of it and take a step back to my dream self, who knows that it’s a dream. I then do some interesting navigation out and back in through windows, likely as a technique to end the “dream” I didn’t like. I end up at Blaine House but I’m unsure if I’m still dreaming. I begin socially dreaming with a bunch of friends, which is typically a situation my dream self considers “not dreaming”. The idea that I’m dreaming leads to the usual desire to fly, but I’m distracted by my friends.
This is my typical dream self awareness — I don’t think I was particularly close to waking self lucidity here.
Visitors: When someone thinks of us, they can appear before us. Friends kept showing up to hang out, and I was drawn into their fun and stories.
Getting Clarity: Going to the garage from Blaine House would indicate a switch out of my body. This would put me in the etheric body near the physical, a position from which vision is sometimes unclear.