Dream Journal
September 9, 1996
I was performing at this rock concert with lots of others on the strangest stage. After playing the first part of a song, I started to wonder how it was that I knew this song, at which point I forgot the rest. Then I was just messing around, trying to play some song I knew. Everyone joined in, and it went really well. Then I started reading this thing to opera music in the opera style and it was really funny. But I couldn’t see the words so well so someone else took over.
Later, while playing in a yard with cats, Muffin came up to me, wise and radiant. She began speaking with me, and I felt so happy. I asked about Estragon, and found her. She was scraggly, fat, and ran away from me. But Muffin was so wonderful to see again.
References: Muffin was my first cat, and Estragon was my second. Both had long since passed on.
Questioning: Questioning how we know something engages the waking self, and often breaks us out of the flow state we’re in. If I hadn’t questioned how I knew the song, I’d have been able to finish it. The waking self needs to stand aside to engage in flow states.
In terms of rotes, we go from riding along with the character playing the song to taking over the character with our own will — one which doesn’t know the song.
Cat Spirit: I wonder if that was really the spirit of Muffin. Since she was radiant and wise, I think it probably was. Thought-forms generally are dull and only act as you expect them to.